i just had another breakdown of sorts..
sometimes i think i really might need help, since i cannot control myself at all
its not like i have such things happening a lot.. but i still have them, and its all because of aggresion.
if u didnt knew already, im extremely aggresive and sometimes i explode in aggresive breakdowns for no apparent reason whatsoever
and such breakdowns mean nothing great, like for real. this time it was sorta different(atleast something like this didnt happen in the past).. and im not really gonna go into what i did during such an episode
i'll for sure say that innocent beings get hurt in the process... i sometimes rant about it to people that try to make me feel better.. but instead i cause them harm, mental harm.
and for now its not physical harm... i hope it stays mental instead of physical.. i dont want such stuff to ever happen....
its almost 3am now, and i have college this morning... i am really afraid... i want a way out of this...
22.09.2025